Live, Learn, Love

So I haven't written anything in a while. Most of that being that I didn't know what to say or what to do. But tonight it hit me that my life is running whether I choose to walk forward or stay stagnant. So from here I am choosing to move forward and to learn from what I've experienced even if it sucks. And trust me it sucks a lot! It's never comfortable to look at a situation and sincerely admit that it's your fault. We've all experienced that awful gut wrenching feeling when you finally catch on that you screwed up. But the beauty in the misery is that you can actually look and find that in this terrible circumstance there is a wealth of knowledge to assure it doesn't happen again. But I digress.

In the last few months I have experienced pain that was all new and all too intense. I fell into a lull and I hit the bottom hard. Staring at the bottom of the bottle hoping and praying that it would bring back the shards of happiness I had felt. Now what's the purpose of even mentioning this you might ask. And in all of it I want to lift you up to let you know that when you feel that he'll itself is at your door I feel compelled to tell you that there is always a brighter dawn to follow even the bleakest of nights. No matter how bad you think things are, and no matter how deep you feel you've been cut, there's nothing to bad for God to heal! 

But in that I want to encourage you even more to be the person who steps out and reaches out if you see someone dealing with a problem. Honestly you have no idea how much that tiny gesture could change the course of their lives. Or in my case you might even find someone to spend your life with. Now from that moment I found an incredible friend that in time became the most incredible partner I could have imagined. 

Now to be completely honest and fair this romance looked absolutely nothing like I imagined it. And I was really uneasy about it at first, but none of my preconceived notions are valid because love and fantasy are not the same. Now in no way has this relationship been easy it's been much harder than most of my other relationships. Although the struggle is very much worth it simply because "anything at all worth obtaining is certainly worth working for"!

Now with all of this it's not to gush or make myself look good it's simply to show that everyone goes through hardships and struggles. Even if someone looks as if they always have it together more than likely they have something going on that's causing stress or hurt, unrest. But from this we can also gather that you can go from feeling like you have the world to contemplating death and drinking into a stupor, and just as quickly find friendship, love, relationship, and even faith. 

Most of all I say focus on being the best you that you can be even in spite of trials and storms. A great quote from Ernest Hemingway, "being noble has nothing to do with being superior to your fellow man, true nobility comes from being superior to your former self." 

In all things love God and love others. Reach out to the broken and fight for those who can't fight for themselves. We are all soldiers in this world, and we all have daily battles that we should be brave enough to stand up and fight! Learn from my mistakes and make it a point to ready yourself for war! 

And all I know is:

No one, no one lives forever

We will be remembered

For what we do right now

And baby I'm living louder

And dreaming longer, tonight

(We're living louder, we're living louder)

And baby I'm fighting harder

And loving stronger tonight

(We're loving stronger, we're loving stronger)

'Cause we're all just kids

Who grew up way too fast

Yeah the good die young

But the great will always last

We're growing older

But we're all soldiers tonight

Lyrics from one of my favorite songs and it fits perfectly "we will be remembered for what we do right now" it doesn't matter if the world remembers your name or that you ever lived. The lives that you touch will echo across eternity and will never even begin to fade!

Give freely

Live openly

Love deeply

"Those who fear tomorrow will suffer today!"

S.O.T.B.